Not far. I didn't even try. I didn't really want to get away, actually, but making that turn into work today was one of the hardest things I've had to do in awhile.
It's the same story. Being so tired but I can't sleep. Only this time I can fall asleep fine, it's staying asleep that I have a problem with. I feel like my whole body is just weighed down with lead and I can't get fully awake for the life of me. I'm zoning out constantly and I'm very, very easily irritated
I've been so drained the past few weeks, every day off I get, I can't seem to enjoy because I know I'll be going right back in the next day. I was supposed to have a whole weekend off but that didn't happen. Even if I wanted to take more than the two days off a week I have, I don't feel like I have that option. I just want like four days off to recharge myself. Have some time alone to just be with myself. There's so much shit I need to sort out in my head, it's hard to do when you're not alone.
I hate bitching about my job because it's pretty easy. It's not super physically demanding, but lately it's taking it's toll on my mental health. I know it's not just from work, but this place doesn't help. I haven't even been here an hour yet and I'm already holding back tears.
It just feels like I'm pushing my own limits and I have absolutely nothing to show for it.
I know everyone gets like this, but these "off" days are coming more and more often. I keep trying to write to get it out, but it's making it worse. I don't knowwhat I'm going to do.
